Sweet memories

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARDHIAH FATIN.

2008-03-13T17:58:00.004+08:00

Hey baby girl. So sorry you're sick on your birthday. Anyway, I just wanna wish you a superb sweet sixteen. Im sorry this is super pathetic. But i oh so wanted to do a montage and burn it for memories laaaaaaaaaah. But the stupid software had to just be so pissed off. Nevermind, this blog post would stay forever anyways :]]
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MARDY! cant wait to see you tommorow my darling.
Takecare<3 oh, sorry. mind the message cause there's no song D:
ILOVEYOU!

Hoping things would be fine..

2008-02-06T14:40:00.000+08:00

Something rly has gotten on me & (youdontknowwho)'s nerves.
Gosh, if its gonna happen, i dont know how to react.
aksbhkdjhgjkdn, seriously.

Anyway, did i tell you i actually shouted "where's sean" to vann when her mum was bside her? tsktsk. sorry yo! lucky ur mum didnt hear uh seh. nehneh.
Anyway, i just recalled the incident at chinatown where me and yani wanted to take the escalator moving DOWNWARDS to go UP! hahah. so funny sia. We laughed like so much. anyways, as promised, here are the pictures:D ANYWAY BEWARE OF THE OVERLOAD OF PICTURES. THIS IS NOT ALL =P

Even through the darkest hours, the hardest times, we'd make it through :D

First picture during the outing(for me uh).

The changing pictures at hotel 81, chinatown. This is for hayani and her mamak boyfriend which we saw there :D [kankankan?]

The beautiful lit-ed dragons.

Nice ball huh? ;D

This thing scared ree. She didnt want th picture mansz. haha. Evillllll.

At the jewelery shop. Pretty earings aren't they?
It was unplanned but we picked out the same shades. weehooo. anyhoo, notice my cheongsam looking shirt ;D heh. i rly wanted to wear it for chinatown. hahha. like semangat cannnn?

Us and our ice cream from italy! (& a tad bit extra for me ;D)

HE HAS HIS HANDS AROUND ME ;DDD haha. the uncle with a very unique moustache.

Three hung plastic piggies.

Yani said "take the goat! take the goat!" and so i did(i think?) hah.

My favourite dude!
I want this!i want this! i want this! I didnt bring enough buckeroos sia. One can cost up to almost $40 bucks but its too pretty to resist, no? D:
In the olden days, memories still linger. Chey, like i was around back then only.
Look at that extra, terkeluaring girl. ishk.
Cheongsams,pretty please :D

Staying still, in midlife.
Decos.

Nightlife baybeh. LaydeeH&me.

BLOODY RANDOM PICS.
snapshot of chinatown.
staircase pic o1.
Without flash, clearer candles.
Laydee and me.

Us three. Not a wonderful shot tho.
2e1 babes forever.
your momma's so dumb, she studied for a drug test-kiffy. haha. ok, i just dont know what to write down here.
heyho huneycakes.
noticed we finally closed the door to have our special snapshot moments.

and..
after many tk menjadi shots and this shot, the owner checked on about the commotion and....saw us..so we ran as fast and as far as we could. and giggled non stop since then :D
Outside the whatever indoor thingy with damn cooooooooooling airconnnnnn

Hayani would say(in her heart): gee's camera rocks my socks sia! hahha.rigghhhht?

Ree demonstrating going up, going down.

Me demonstrating going up, going down. Yeahyeah, start the bloody gossip, we've nth better to do! (and ohohoh, you're so so right bitch.)

A heavily biased shot.Where did my face go to sia?![padehal, sape yg amek ehks?]
Blurred.
Where's hayani?
The POUT shot, tk menjadi sngt. haha. bytheway, its ree's favourite pose.
See the pout? jyeah, you got me right. Bibir last warning eh ree.

Darling ree♥♥♥

Besides the pouts, notice the showing stomach. hahahhaha!
L to the O to the V to the E!
Like it came from a computer screen 8)
Creds to yani's cammie.
Gee's fantabulous idea. See how empty it is alrd at night, tho it is in chinatown? D:

BFFLs, and i mean it, cross my heart babe.
Notice that hayani is a bit more translucent than the rest.
As yani says-tk snonoh sia amek gamba terkangkang koyak. tsktsk. "TAU TKPER!"
Me taking yani taking ree yo!

yani hearts phonebooths,kan?
AU-NATURAL, i like.

pls only notice the alternate leg positions! DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT, attempt to look at th fugly faces. It was cause we were trying to supress our laughs. can you stare into a faked up face for so long?NO right.haha. thats why. Gosh, it was killing me inside. hahahahha.
Toes and ring :D
Hearts by ree and yani
Im not showing mine and yani's hearts cause ree had to include my stupid face in it(its supposed to be taken without face apeeerrrr, so i did a stupid look luh.heh)
I said"eh, show that you're tired" and this was how they express that they're fatigue.
ree's

mine's ( ree has th black one too! and i have ree's shirt in black:D)identical uhhh.
Gee says : NEXT STOP AHH, dont care, i dont like.
Gee says: YANIII! LOOOK!! (gee talks alot uh?)
Gee says: i wanna squeeze thy booobies.
Failed attempt #1

Failed attempt #2
The final attempt :D
Baybehs for life.
Trynna immitate th poster.
Attempt #2

Attempt 3 :D
Commuters.
They running(so gay!)
We running on the escalator. How stupid, sheeesh. heh.
Notice the blondes, not ree's side.

Never tired of snappin'
Vanity
zomg, notice the colourful bag in the background. cute siaaaa
bloody random, bloody fuggleyh.
yanniiiiiiiii.

Peace out yaw

Farina got tired of photos, finally.
But not us :D
Superheroes wannabe!

Yani's blurr face :P
Random burst of laughter.
Bright light.
Emo sia this girl
Creds to me 8)

& to yani.
Hot hot girlfriend of mine.
Black is back is black is back. aha,stupid song.
Elmo and ms emo :L
MONYET FACE FROM US.

Like i want to sepak then cubit you knowww!
I so HEART this photo and its shade. Goshes. Btw its me pushing yani down(srsly, she needs balancing classes)
Ah, my favourite girl ♥
Everyone loves my elmo :D Lynette SANG an elmo song with pride during assembly. awh. Thanks van for the chocs anyways. :D
Me with kiffy's bag(its not tht bad u know), dee with my bag,thel with hers and kiff with dee's. AND OUR LOVELY CNY DECORATED NOTICEBOARD.

LOOK! new found friends. haha. kidding. Thats cheryl,corrine and aqilah on the top. No sandra and one-tenth of dee's face.
Look at my shoe & purple socks ;D heh. niway, there's syahieda's corrine, cheryl's and i dont know who.heh, sry.
Me and ree's from hk :D

Efivers plus aqilah and me :D LOVE♥

ZOMG, FINALLY DONE! nah amek kau.

2008-02-06T13:07:00.000+08:00

Hey,today is so loved man!
Teman dee find stuffs at whitesands, tm and century.
&we lunched at ljs. I terserempak with fee,mard,fatin,elsen,kak nisa and a few more moments with mard to teman her wait for her mom :DDDDDDD and dee terseremak with ASLAM!so coincidental uh? :]
IT IS SO LOVED to feel the burden liften when you see your friends and get a big big big hug from em and squeals here and there ♥HEAVEN!
Some shops were closed to :/ urgh.shucks.

ANYWAY,school was okaylah. i cant wait to see ma ghurlfwenz yaw! Only if aini was always there :/ AH, drop the topic seh.

ITS A HOLIDAY ZOMG! happy chinese new year to all! :D have fun going out while the shops are closed. And to those who have money, comeon, bring me out to a movie date or sth ;D hahhaa. kidding.
Goshes,im so tireddddddddddddddddddddddddd,gonna sleep now.
AND EVERYONE LOVES GEE'S ELMO BACKPACK ♥
WOOOTS.

2008-02-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ystd chinatown was the sex:D
Havent had time to upload the pictures[which are so merapek]
Anyway, the pictures made me laugh to myself while i was waiting for someone.
haha, damn ass man. So malu la. Yani yani. Then say i bimbo ahhh.
(fillintheblanks) is so irritating la can?
ZOMG!

anyhoos, am damn tired.GUESS WHAT?esok half day uh seh! Then temaning dee to get(hinthint) ;DDD hope ree would follow. Have fun at chinatown uh dee! :P

Dearest one, i love you yea? ♥

p/s-pictures in the next post aite.

2008-02-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Today was pretty fine.
Met love and the weather was tad bit too cold. D:
I see people in jackets everywhere.
Heh.

AND HOE CHIN IS A GEEK? zomg. he can relate shoe size to math.
like making a joke out of a favour. ahhaha. darn.
Thanks nicky butt :D

Tommorow is a bloody schoolday. Yucks. I could almost picture th dreadful every week routine. Sucker sucker sucker. Wednesday come quick! But then again, why do shops close during CNY?! i neeed to go out. I wanna go shop. A-hole.

I just read online that your body can burn fats on its own(?!) cool yo. The whole world's gonna be skimpy town. heh. Darn, im tired. Blackcircleyebagsdroopylids.yuchks.
Going to sleep now. OHOH, im flunking tmr's math test. I tried to do few questions. & you got it right, all of them wrong, wrong wrong. Oh im so set for dead.Im so screwed. God,why am i dumb? [to that very extent] Stupid circles and curves. GO BE SOMEBODY ELSE'S MATH TEST,not mine, not mine, not mine!

♥XOXO,yawns.

2008-02-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

Im getting excited.
I hope fuss it is a nice person :D
yeeehaww.

Anyhoos, it sucks to have a bloody flat prepaid okeh.
And nobody's home cept me so i cant use their handphones.
And im supposed to go out ltr and it sucks cause how the hell do i meet someone without contacting them? hah, sucker.
Oh, im being a bitch and leaving the house a mess as it was. Im too lazy to do the cleanup this time cause i told sister to make the bed, and oh well, it was just too much for her huh? so i didnt bother either :P tsktsk.

Evilicious. Anyhoos, i want to msg all my baybehs & tell em i miss em.
Comeon, i want a topup.shucks. *LE SIGHHHHHHHH* *drooooops shoulders&poutssssssssss*
Ive got about a thousand msgs to reply right now. nyeheh.

Oh, and i had pizza last night :O Im super putting on kilos right now.Irony why izah would say i look thinner. Maybe cause she wants a better vday gift from me. Hrmmm..

OH BAYBEH,for now.
Mac's birthday is coming.
And valentine's day is coming.
Anything else? oh, nadia's birthday too but that's the later part of the month so, shoosh.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, CHINESE NEW YEAR HOLIDAYS ARE COMING AND I WANNA GO OUT SHOPPPPPINGGG THEN. but then again, its a freaking public holiday and the shops would be closed. argh, shucks. Maybe time for a catch up or alot more of sit back and relax day. OR MOVIES :D Damn, im getting bored, as you can see. The effect of being home all alone. Without someone to talk to.(online and on the phone) and without anyone to bug through sms. NO LIFE NO LIFE NO LIFE.

I insist on not topping up cause i want that money to myselfffff. Mom, come home and help me top up noooooooooow D: boooo.

OH and sorry to whoever's msges whom i didnt reply. i would very soon okei, promise you pretty :D

♥

2008-02-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

Here's some bloody random pictures [outdated ones too].

Here's a pair of my wake up face, swear.
Haha. i look so busok. It was so random when i wanted to snap a pic when i barely opened my eyes.Months back i think.
Here's pictures during the cancelled CIP.

Dearest dee, syahieda and mua :D

We trying to kissy kissy miss pouty lips ;D oh yumm!

Wanted: COOL PEOPLE :D jyeah. Spot the resemblence? btw, that's SYAMIMI.

See that a-hole there? Yeah, menyebok, don't you think? urgh.

In zee library. Haha, ree is addicted to POUTS! ;P

LOOK at ree's and my leg. The positioning mcm da plan siots. haha.

My most annoying baybeh, for life ;D jyeah.

Who's your hero now, looser?!nyeahah.

The blurry effect was cool okeyh? hhaha. This was when ree and dee got tired of snapping pics thus i resorted to mimi. heh.

And this was when i was angry at her.haha.sucker.

And there's more to go but sadly, i dont have the pics with me. Blame my phone which has been on sevice for over a month already and it'll prolly take few more months or so they said. Shit,buy the parts also take so long mehs? eeek, i miss mr phoney D:

Hhah, kthnxbye.

2008-02-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

Argh, i can't stand this. I can't stand this at all.
Why the fcking crap am i so fcking emotional today?
What's gotten into me?
I cant decipher my own fcking self.

I THINK IVE GONE NUTS, REALLY.
maybe the mental institution is my place to be. hrmm.

And here i go again.
Shit man , shit.

Anyway, im sorry mum if ive made you mad today. Sorry to leave halfway.
Sorry i wasnt being myself.

Who am I? I ask myself.
Myself being many books upon a shelf.
In a quest for character I search myself.

♥Maybe i turn out wrong afterall.

2008-02-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

The emotional breakdown.
Nuff' said.

Anyways, a shoutout goes to ma gerls.
imissya'll.
Fee,nabs,mard and nini.
&th guys too.
All of em, yup.
Jst the whole gang itself is impossible to meet up with.

Oh, i want ystd's pictures pls.

&oh, i forgot to mention,HAPPY THIRTEENTH MY LOVE!♥
This heart keeps beating to your name:D

Seven more days to dee's fifth, eh? Last long huneybunch.

♥

2008-02-02T08:42:00.000+08:00

WHY THE SAD SONGS EVERYWHERE?
why the heartbreaks every here and there?
Now i feel the pain. so weird.
I feel like im the one with the heartbreak.tsk.
HEY PEOPLE, CHEERUPS HONEYBUNCH!
:D

Nothing's easy but with effort, finally, everything's possible love.

Woooah, i slept early ystd. So super duper refreshing.
And sorry fiz, i didnt ans the call.
Sorry if i spoilt the plan etc.

D:

2008-02-01T21:35:00.001+08:00

TODAY WAS A SUPERB DAY.
after school was all about being high(during after cip tk menjadi thingy) ;p
School was fast i think.Grand review sucked.
Then off home. yadayada.she came over etc met dee.bought bubble tea etc met the others and LOL incidents happens.Then cip all tak menjadi so just slacked at class. Had the same bag with ree but dee also used a red bag. Had the same watch as dee. but then mimi lend ree her same type of watch. like gerek can?! WE CAMWHORED alot . seriously manx. and guess where?mostly was at the library. ahha. what a place.

Then met dekky soon after. Chilled for a while but spirits were dampen by the wet weather. haha. nevertheless, i enjoyed seeing you okeh? you never fail to make me smile :D

Anyway baybehs, i love ya'll.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERA!
HAPPY TO BE BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST HILLARY. friends since pri sch ,jyeah! ;DD much loves hunneybunch.

Ive so much to do now.and im half dead. :/

2008-01-31T16:47:00.001+08:00

God,give me the will & strength.

ss was cool.ystd's chem was cool.VIDEOS<3

MUCHLOVES;
gee.

2008-01-30T18:01:00.001+08:00

This thing hits me on and off. I just wish i could turn back time. Turn back time to before all this started. If only. But reality has smacked me hard.

Anyway, the cramps are being so bfjsfhhdjsm irritating right now.
Thanks hayani for pei-ing me pad hunting just now ;D loves you.

And boy, i would crash on you only if you bail on me. LY! ♥

The story went on and on.
One day, it just stopped there and then.

2008-01-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today was all about talks andd more talks which covered up my boredomn.
In class, me and dee had kental talks about her being half guy half girl when singing dua insan. Then about how joey lost the key. and we made ridiculous jokes and etc. Was so much laughter to cover up for the boredomn on comprehension :D but i forgot what we talked about mostly. haha. and We talked about the pain of being commented by (insertspecieshere) ;DD ouch,mansx. Then school finally ended and during np it was ree's and my turn to talk. We talked alot, jumping topics to topics. and hearing the HOT stories, myrah decided to join in after her phone call and which fairuz joined too. and we talked about their so cool primary sch friend.HA-HA. and fairuz's cat and her lil cousin and the juniors. really funny. Had super nice laughs.

Then in the bus home the freaking bus broke down, and the guys were being such big a-holes. Joey commanded "move it female dogs" when we wanted to go down. Then i shouted, "then you must be the son of ours"-meaning to say son of a b*tch :D sucker.

So then its goodbye. i like the new sec ones ;D zomg they're an out of the world, a dream batch,overachievers i would say. "no, i dont want water break. i want to run long long. i want a seven day 6 night camp. 2 day not fun." and its as if they're enjoying the repetition os shouting "yes ma'am" after us,with so much self-confidence it in :D so loved! i think they'll fair better than us. haha.
but if they can tahan that is.

And me and ree, phobia of birds and shits. oh, you know what that spells.

Goodnight♥
dee, incase you need the reminder, you owe me cupcakes tmr ;D

And to whoever. I just want you t knw i'm downright disappointed with you.

Math test tmr and i saved dee.

2008-01-28T18:29:00.000+08:00

I feel so damn satiated. Me and yani got our ice cream waffle with choc fudge at temasek today ;D Then yani wanted t get twister fries after hmly. wonder if she did. haha. bynk mengidamn woyy.

Hmly was screwed up with cikgu thinking im so self-deprived just cause i didnt get an a1 like evryone else did. Haha, so what man? The whole world knows i didnt but im over that fact cause i know i tried(?!) haha. and sheikh just randomly convo-ed me on msn for fee's o lvl results. Haha, i think cikgu must think imma big bitch and so does th rest of the class cause im always such an a-hole during hmly. haha. what do you except? it drags on til nearing five. and its either papers, compos or compres?! or idiom tests -.- and like i already am, i turn crazy when im bored. Seriously. you should never see me bored when im out with any of you manxzx. i can get real high and (not mentioning) rude.

And hayani has a very big hobby of self proclaiming on my papers XD
heh, you fart till my whole world shakessss uh bebeh!

I think im a personal hero. Dee studied for a mth chap 12 instd of e math chap 12 fr tmr's test. and if its not for me who told her it was emath instd, she will die for tmr's test. ah,she owes me kazillion billion CUPCAKES. and yes people, she forgot mine. Im getting cupcakes from izah/kimmmmmmeyyy for vdae. Well,its brown brownies for izah. hmpfh. ahha. cupcakes won okay? :P i love you boobies. :DD

♥

2008-01-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

Went shopping today with sis&mum but mummy had to go off halfway.
Was cool, but a tad bit too rushed. Cause we had to head home by like hrmm...10? for me to do last min revision for tmr's paper and my sis to finish up her homework.

And dee got jelous cause i never ajaked her and she doesnt want to spend her pay on me now D: and im secretly wanting to see if she remembers her promise for tmr. cuppycakes. i bet not manszxz. im alrd feeling devastated by it. huhu. mati kau deeee!

ANYWAY LOVE, if you read this, take good care of yourself okay? and stop hurting yourself over and again. Rest alot alot la baby. Even though im not there to watch you heal,i hope you would soon. it pains me to see you in such a state [tk bley bukak mate per?! hahhhaha]. and lastly, i love you so mucn[even tho you lost insertthinghere;haha.] its unconditional baybeh ♥ Tkcr.

Tommorow's the start of a new,yet so utterly dreadful, week. I cant wait to scream "TGIF!" and throw some confetti around. heh. impian, impian. MACAM PAHAM Well, i pray to almighty this week wouldnt be too rough on me.

& before i say night night, i'd like to seek forgiveness from whoever for anth ive done evillishly wrong to you. Im sorry even though it might have been sort of intended, but no hard feelings anymore. Peace![ahaha, tak nak retribution peh psl kepe.haha.NABILAH!]

Now, goodnight ♥

2008-01-27T10:11:00.000+08:00

ONLINE SHOPPING IS THE SHITXZSZ. sis got me caught up in it :D
Wooooots.
After so long uh.

Pretty dress,tubes,vintage tees, accessories , mirrors etc :D
Cant wait to get em all when ive the buckeroos to do so.

Anyways, i feel like smacking myself for not revising. shits.

♥

2008-01-26T18:44:00.001+08:00

Met Dekky! wohoooooooooo.
Happy happy babe today =D
Slacked for a while only though when he&his friend was off to soccer and stuff.
Today is kinda moderate. Was happy cause i need not wake up early, can slack ! abit. haha. &&mum's coming home =D

Cant get my mind straight;
so many stupid thoughts, too many.

Living will always be a struggle looking for someone to love you
Looking back at single horrors, this madness makes me want to hide
Slowly, internally, I'm dying
Pillow case is wet from all my crying
There is nothing more for me to live for
Take me away, I can't live that life no more

This is the life, trying to survive
This is the life, trying to survive

I'm just trying to get over..

Random lyrics :D

♥

2008-01-26T11:11:00.000+08:00

Test typing mania with kim and fatin :D
Kim got fourty points, fatin zero( i bet she panicked la).
HAHAHAHA. owns ballsz la. here's mine

You reached 269 points, so you achieved position 68405 of 244944 on the ranking list
You type 355 characters per minute
You have 63 correct words and
you have 1 wrong words

Sucks still. hahaha. but the second website i damn stupid. give a whole text to type and i cant even make it with the title. urgh. hahah. Damn sian. but im happy with what i got :D heh.

♥

2008-01-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

Not trying to sprout vulgarities here;
But i am very very extremely fed up/stressed up, whatever.
Without mum home, im like in charge of this stupid house where (thank god my lil brother isnt here to mess it up) the little sister is in turn to mess up the whole godd*mn house. And when i gave her a little nagging or so, she starts rebelling and when i pinched her, she starts crying.Gosh, its irritating. I mean, i aint your maid to clean up after your stupid mess okay. Its not even supposed to be my problem. STOP BEING THE LITTLE F*KIN BRAT YOU ARE ALREADY. im so sick and tired of you being so petty.

Thats one. With all the gaming and song playing, ive yet to get down to business(even though the two sisters are major distractions). I need to get at least my homework done and start studying for my (six) tests next week. Did i mention i sucked the previous mathematical test so badly. but its kay, i didnt expect any better. ho ho.

Another thing is making my blood boil but i shant disclose it ,aye? Well, i hope its some random misread actions or so. Whatever it is, i want to push it to the back of my mind no matter how hard it is.

Ive borrowed three books and yes, i have to finish it before the due date. Oh goshes, with all that workload?!

Lime flea market at youth scape prk tmr! i want :( but howhowhow?I need buckerooos. A to the S to the bloody S. -.- i feel so pathetic and deprived and such a slacker right now.

REE! and dEE! and me, have motivated ourself to study. It shall be like a wake up call, shant it? A man's mistake might just be another man's lesson. Anyway, sister said SAC was top five for o lvl in sg. On average i think. At first she told me otherwise, saying maybe the results sucked but today some media interviewer came to her school and interviewed some damn ass brainy girl or so she said. Congrats to everyone who got what they wanted anyways(again.)Mimi, i'd always be there to support you through. You can count on me, baybeh!

♥

2008-01-25T16:05:00.001+08:00

I wonder why they don't sound sincere anymore.
Instead of doing what it's supposed to, it's doing otherwise.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe, its just me.

2008-01-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog, but urgh.. i think i sense pms on the way.
My days are not much of happiness. yea, pretty moody.
So im like really pissed now.
With two things actually.
Big times issues with myself.
Urgh. I need a TIME OUT.

anyways, i still wanna congrats the bimbo beatrice upon her results. superb job!

♥

2008-01-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today has been a pretty moody day, i can safely say.
Ended up going to hmly with a sour face. and yea, kinda quiet at first.
But hmly being hmly, id switch back to my old kecoh jovial self.
And teasing cikgu etc.
Cikgu did make jokes etc, and it cheered me up uh :D
Tho its sucha big burden, ive never rly seen hmly this year as urm....DAMN TROUBLESOME or whatsoever.

Anyways, no show and tell today. and no CIP for us hmly girls :D
WOhooooo. cool kan?Give flyers to most prolly ignorant people? urgh. how nice, NOT?
:P ohkay, hope you guys enjoyed it yea.

Ahahha. the bugging is on baybeh! you play your game and id play mine.

♥

2008-01-23T17:47:00.001+08:00

oh, and i also have phy level test next week.
The best part is my phy teacher havent touched much on that topic. and isnt going to do so since she's on some course.
Ah, wonderful right? >:[

2008-01-23T08:00:00.000+08:00

I thought i've quite a sum of tests next week(about two or so) but
I thought wrong.
There's a pretty HELL LOT.

monday:chem test, math test.
Thurs:geog test
Friday:math test

And this is not inclusive of our oh so usual ritual of overpiling homework. think about the minimal time we'd gonna get to actually dig our heads in the books for these papers. Goshes. Really luh, comeon. Im prolly just gonna flunk all, wont i? Urghness.

Anyways, its wednesday, explains why im blogging in the morning :D

2008-01-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

Ive the urge to blog but ive got too much too say and im too lazy.
So in the next post, i would remind myself to blog about;
Me and ree's misadventure/laughing fits today.
And misassumptions of two dudes who cant just stop laughing.
(zomg, boy flip or what eh?)

And after np, at the bustop, as siti claimed, there's this cute, graham-looking serangoon jc guy who smiled at the np girls there. haha. wtf, rly. hahha.

And booya, ree and i are on a spree of watching movies while our stomachs churn of guilt ;D heh, am i not right baybeh?

♥
time for bed? :D

2008-01-21T19:46:00.001+08:00

JUNO IS SUPER DUPER GREAT.
a should watch, rly :D
i could almost feel her pressure. goshes. heh.

anyways, miss ya hun:D

2008-01-21T18:01:00.000+08:00

School was as usual. but mr chia was biased on the math test.
We only had one freaking period when other classes got almost two. (cept for e1) urgh..
I feel good today, i guess? Well, so-so.

Anyway, catching movies now and a hell load of other nice shows on star world all day long {hints dee}
Got it all planned at school. :P Nyeahahah.

♥

p.s- i love you.

[edit]

DID I FORGET TO DIE? RESULT'S THURS. goshgoshgosh. how can people not be afraid? goshes. my turn would be wayyyy too sooon D: i know i wont do well. just the matter to drop or not. its rly been keeping me back. DDDD:

[/edit]

2008-01-20T20:16:00.001+08:00

The dee video by selam cracked me up ah seh :D
Haha, marah nampak marah nampak. ishkkkk.
I can sue you both of abuse seh.

HHAHAHA,ive been procrastinating.

There's the math test tmr and my hand itches to go online and dooodle around.
Goshes. I still yet t wake up you may say? D: BOO.

So much's in my mind now, rly.
Gotta sort my mind.
EH EH, im jolly la seh. i cleared my bookstuff so its not lying ard anymore! weee-.
But in the middle, i loose some things here and there but i found all of it alrd. :D
Weee.neatttt job yo!

AND AND AND SELAM BOTAK! WOOOOOTS.
amek kau botak :P

♥

2008-01-19T08:13:00.000+08:00

WOHOOO.
ecstatic.had a super early goodnight yesterday, after reading about china's geography(the book they gave during hk trip). interesting jugakkk uh. hahah.

:DDDDD And im first to wake up in the familyyy. hahaha. gerek or what?

ok, whatever. got some breakfast to finish up yaw, gdbye!

♥

omgah. i loved blonde ambition. :D nice movie yaw. i hate tht bitch mannszsxz.

2008-01-18T20:03:00.001+08:00

What Jihan Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

WOWZA.

The last week day :D

2008-01-18T16:43:00.000+08:00

:D
School was super tiring.
Maybe it was the fact that we had practical assessment on a topic my lazy teacher hasnt taught us. And yes, our answer scripts are going to the MOE.
And she wont be seeing us the whole of next week, and yet we're having another assessment. goshes, i hate -!!
Maybe it was the fact that i had to sit for a comprehension test on a Friday afternoon, under the hot hot sun. And when i took it i had to put up with insects flying about, me not concentrating, talking/shushu ranting poa definitions etcetc :D {She temaned me at th garden}, and ite students coming back screaming and talking and blabbering. and im listening to their story instead of concentrating. Yea, great. would look nice on my ca1 report slip, right?! Awh, agony.

I miss ♥

[edit]

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
You made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands

[/edit]
Haha, random lyrics much.
&&AvP was not too bad luh. sides the fact that there's creatures(et would be an exemption tho, but sadddd, he wasnt there D:

2008-01-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

You look me in the eyes, with utter contempt, don't you?
Well, i know everyone else does.
Ive no say about it anymore.

Anyway, thanks syam for you know, always chatting with me during times of...eh no, always! ahah. You're greatly missed at school ok. haha.Sorry i have to always cut the convo short and be too busy to meet you. Not intended , rly! next time ask beforehand uh. hahaha :P keep smiling, lil girl :D

My day had been rly hectic. From bad to worst till i don't know what to say.
How i wish i can just not be present tomorrow, just forget about studies for sometime. My most needed break, swear.

You know, life's weird since i ever turned into a double digit aged human. There's always a crashing.A crashing meaning every time i'm contented something, surely something would be there, ready to destroy all smiles in me.I don't know anything now, my mind's so blank i can walk banging a wall. I'm so lost,I'm nowhere near sane.
If only i could relate to something, something that can guide me right.I need a reason to why this is all happening? I need someone who would always tell me the answer, over and again.

-Even though they said what's meant to be will find its way.

2008-01-17T18:19:00.000+08:00

You know i know.

Brunch with the girls was fun uh.
Heh, and fatin, you are short and have short fingers ok.
No doubt ;D
I love the girls and urm (justin) hahahha. he kpo la seh.
Thanks for the time. and yes, i love you.
And thanks for the giggles.

You kept me so preoccupied i dont know how else to sort it out.
My days were spend deep down in thoughts.
I feel so fucked up now, im so confused.
Well, ive nothing else to say now.
Ive had my says and she did too.
It just went poof.
Well, didnt it?
DEKKY, MISS YOU LA HIMBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

♥

2008-01-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

WELL OH WELL.
to sum up the day, 'twas a blast with my mister :D
Haha, so much giggling and laughing.
And knocking of the kneecaps.
And flying legs. hahaha.

Well, ok, dumb act i know.
But hell, was it funny mansxsz.
Love sent/fetched me just now ;D
Thanks baby!

Anyhoos,im so dead with the homeworks and all luh seh. >:/
I CATCH NO BALLS!zZzZzZzZz..peeeeeeeeezed.

And ree, im so sorry alright. If you ever did feel forgotten or etc. You know you're first in mind, and that i love you so much right? Im sorry if you were offended but it was unintentional, darling. Yea, and if you did bother to read this, i wanna say thanks and yes, love you so much. But well, i doubt you would huh.Just so you know, i never did forgot you just now. We both were waiting for you there and decided to place our bags first and sat there till as usual, i would go to the canteen and find you, but well.

Goodnight♥

2008-01-16T07:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTH FATIN DEAREST :D
im glad its your longest rship so far ;D
iloveyou!

♥

2008-01-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

I'm not guilt conscious, but i'm sorry.

Really, i am, in case you're all ired up with me.

Sorry.

So anyways, ive got new friends in tuition =D
Ohhhhh, and i know dee's little secret now, huh.

Yessah, ohkay, none of my homeworks are done. And lesson plan.

Shoooooooooo!♥

2008-01-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

Firstly i would like to say,

HAPPY SEVENTH MONTHSARY to mard darling and me :DD

Oh,goshes, its been too long we've not caught up/met.But its alright, i understand. Im just as busy too ;D Study hard okay darla? Anyhoos, i really love you from deep down inside. Indeed you are my sweetest sin. You've been a part of me for quite sometime, tho only've been together for seven months(ha). I love you, dear girl. And i want you to know id be there, tru thick and thins, together with you and the girls. You're never forgotten and always close at heart. As the saying goes, rship is not by the number of times you meet; but how close you two are at heart. And For this, i rly love you ♥WOHOO. and thanks for wanting to be my boyfriend and saving me from my emotional wreckage many months ago! loves!

And so school was super gerek.
Its like so boring and boring calls for MEREPEKNESS. and so it happened.
In class was stupid talks with riandy kiffy dee me. Then me and dee (plus vick) continued the merepekness with the (something) you back thingy. Hah. Then akif did stupid dances for the mr chia song and urm, gimme more. and akif says im an expert in rship advice yaw! weee-. hahhaa. aku tau :D ok, bedek. Then urm,dee told me and ree sth scary.Then in class i told kiff i was a changed person. so then we started becoming alim and chanting songs of religion. Then before school ended i blessed akif many times with the holy songs remixed with gimme more, so that he wouldnt be tempted to even hold dewwwwwwwwi's hand. ahahhaha. ohkay. Then i pinched that blardy matrep's nipple. Yes, joel. yours. haha. i was so irritated by you and your botak head la.
Then i drew on akif's birthmark. A smiley face and the trademark, gee.
Hhaha. and there was this one part i started nyanyi some alim songs then akif was saying i was random. And i said "Tande-tande tuuuuuuu".
Then he said tande ape?Then i went pointing to his overgrown mole/birthmark. "ah tu, tande die." hahahha. super kental la seh. swear to god la. Mr chia could just ignore our crazyness of shouting2 and pushing each other down. This is what happen when you put the three of us in a row. Too bad for riandy he was at the end of the row =P and just watched the fun.

Then there was this part the ball rolled down the row uh. Then someone asked grace to raise her leg. And guess what akif said by accident(he didnt know someone asked her to raise her leg uh.-geddit) He said : Then i aim uh. or sth like that. hahah. ksiao man. He digs innocent girls too?! zomg, kiffy kiffy. mepek bdh lu.

ok, there's so much more but im lazy. so shoooo, bye!

AND AND AND, I FINISHED MY BOOOOOOOOOK ;D wohoo. i so loved the ending, i shrieked!
THE CUPID'S EFFECT IS THE SHITSZXSZ. yeehawww.

2008-01-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

And did i tell you guys.
Today, someone showed me the different side of life;one i would say much brighter with god's presence acknowledged.
How amazing it was someone like her, so special, ignored the disabilities bestowed unto herself and yet praised the lord every now and then, in her every song, of the life He has given. i know at one point of time dee asked"i can hear sniffings but who's crying seh?" Well of course i didnt admit it was me. I was holding up my tears when i sniffed. i was moved. Utterly moved by a premature baby who grew up to be a twelve year old blind girl, with only one lung. But born with a mighty talent-the talent to sing. Songs of life, songs of thanks, songs to praise Him.

I'm touched. How she, so innocent,so tender,sees life, appreciates it, love it, in a way better than i did and reached out to others. While i on the other hand, have squandered half my life away on redundant things, sins and everything else. I sinned against god's name and his purpose for me to live. But well, it was a heart-warming moment and now i can picture her in mind,kneeling by her bed, praying to god for strength for the days ahead. Well,and of course to thank her parents who guided her literally or not, in every of her doing.I thus, want to thank God for everything in life that he has given me.

Dearest Almighty♥

My day's filled

2008-01-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

Today was hectic. Rly tiring. ok, not hectic.
just that im tired, after just reaching home(now).

Had school with the ,yet again, new timetable.
Had normal lessons with war during math at joey's and elibird's table.
Then also had spelling test&sentence construction,zomg kiddish.
Also, had mly -.-
Then hmly!(even tho its damn boring during sec four, i do kinda look forward to it nowadays, and yani's my partner :D)
Had compre, and compo like always.
The going home was bimbotic with the load of rain going on.
Haha. And running and giggling.
After higher malay, teman-ed siti to get a cake for her daddy then we both RANTED ABOUT GOVINDA! and like he's not online neither is she cause we planned to play on him*giggles* nepalese ;P
Then i meet my dearest babygirl, and chatted etcetc(the norms) till 9 plus. WAITED FOR THAT BLOODY AZFAR FOR SO LAME LA ISHK!

Then like,i almost finish my boooook! so excited for the ending. and i borrowed a novel :D yay, im occupied :D

And yea baybeh, i miss you♥
And my prepaid's low.

p/s- i wanna credit clive for typing out the timetable for me
And myrah for typing out the whole of sec two peribahasa plus meanings for me yaw!

mucho loves♥

-ive thought in on, said it out. So much's been going on in my mind, it almost created reality- D:

2008-01-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

im so peeezed, with myself.
Im so stressed, with the loads that's been going on.
Yessah.

Anyway, mum bought a new mp4 for sister,with a camera?!
But then, sister couldnt function it and mum's exchanging it tommorow for a normal mp4. sadness.

Haha.

Anyway, love. Thanks for your time :D I would try my best to compromise alright?Just know i love you so.♥

Haha, and yani, lucky the money wasnt yours, eh?haha,BIMBOKU! :DD

♥
yo' fallin' out on ya own shitxz.

2008-01-13T11:49:00.000+08:00

Good luck chuck was nice rly.
So sweeeet luh the ending :D
Goshes to the goth girl.

Anyhoos,am home with my sister. Pretty damn bored.
Fika asked me out but i couldnt cause id be doing hmwrks later.
Eurgh.

House without the lil kids and sister still sleeping, is rly rly peacefullll ;D
I like.
I miss mard. ♥♥
wonder how she's doing.

Really irritating why noone's online. hah.

gdbye♥

2008-01-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

I dont know how to feel, really.
Its irritating but im being oblivious.
But my mind's so preoccupied i cant get anything running jst yet.
Argh, really.

Now me and sisters watching movies online.
Stupid la, cause the connection sucks and ive been reloading for hours.
Stupid kan? i know D:

I really am fucked up,urgh.
Lucky it aint period time or i'll just burst out due to pms.

I need my daily dosage of happiness.
Anyone,please?

♥

[edit]
zomg, i read sth shocking. heartbreaking even for me. Goshes,its been happening so frequently nowadays. to my friends,relatives etc. I hope this minority doesnt change the rest D: To -, stay strong yaw :D much loves,
[/edit]

The purest being

2008-01-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

As dee requested,

TADAAAAA!**shows identical white watch**
Tadaaaaaa!**shows identical fake mole**(which evryone tot was real btw :D
& we went around the whole sch doing this to random people. Dee la,asked me to show it to all my friends. Haha, your schoolmates also ape!

Then today, i finally met huda and her mister, dee and selam and izza& friends.
Was fun la actually, but tiring with all the walking :D
Tp's cool yo.

I miss that somebody. Hrm.
Damn, my ppd's flat so enjoy not being replied, everyone D:

"Babies are the purest being;Purer than anything, purer than diamond."~
Random.heh, but i wanna be a baybeeee. Woots.

Ahh, im so bored, and i need to peeee. heh. kthnxbye!

♥

2008-01-12T10:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a total blast for me mans!

Went to singapore poly with my darling nabila after school.
Yes,two people only and that means no good in a big big school.
hah, but it was giggles and smiles and blushes and beloness(to the max)
Not bad, id say.
The food there.. urm, average.
Had solihin to send me to the food court, with his friends.

Random la. cause i asked huda for in's number.
Then at the moment i sent the msg, someone shouted my name, twice.
Then it was in! haha. &he hasnt rcvd the msg yet, till much later.
So belo i would say.
Then we went off first without him :P

Was nice & all.

So sth super irritating had to happen, and spoil nab's day.
So we were going to meet fee by hook or by crook, tho she duwan to go out.
So we went to her place.
Goshes, can i say it was damn fun la?!
First time ever seh. Well, but not for me and fee la.
heh.

At first it was me and fee talking. then nab all emoing and smsing, not wanting to talk. Then she burst out and we succeeded in making her happy! damn happy! and to that fucking bastard, jst eff off okay. You're worth nothing, beast. She's ours now. :D

Then ended off the day with meeting love, mal and tiin :D
That was laughters too with them pranking their friend.
Heh.

Okey, then when i got home it was alrd midnight or past that, so i was damn sleepy. dozed off, not replying love's smses :D sorry? heh.

♥

2008-01-11T13:40:00.000+08:00

Obviously, i have lost all the respect i had in you(not tht i had so much anyway)
But seriously, you're full of what i shall say, BULLSHIT.
[would elaborate later, or not]
but whatever.

Yay, dee's okayyyy :D
my lil' pink pigggeyyyy :}
Stay happy alright,id help in whatever ways i can.
And yup, im there in the same boat so i know very well.
I love youu dee. and thanks for the post :D
i know you sayang me.
i syg you toooooo ;D
&ree of course. :DDD

Cant wait to see you both tommorow!
AND OMGOMGOMG, HUDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
phews, after so goddamn long laaaaaaa.
goshes, i love you threeee.

And my other girls tooo
Sorry yani couldnt join you and kak nisa.
Was real sick with my throbbing headache.
Heh,much loves.

♥

Once upon the blue moon

2008-01-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

My girl's over the moon.
&so am i.
Im gelllaaaaaaad(glad,yea) :D
Go nabila! ive been dying to see you this way, the old youuuuu :)
Awh, memories. But well, its back, right? hope you'd stay happy all through :D

Ree!
Thanks babylove,for everything :D I love you too. Rly appreciate your concern. :D
Dee!
Dream on with wanting a whole set of days and months for your tak menjadi anaks, ok? Selam is not a factory, i can tell you that.
Wait till you find out all his sperms are dead. :O

hahah!♥

2008-01-10T16:15:00.000+08:00

Sick again?kudos.
I came home to find myself feeling very nauseous.
And mum at the door saying "why your face so pucat?"
And i went to bed rightaway.
Well, i cant sleep of course, with this throbbing headache.
And something on my mind that's not so right.

Akif is a changed man seh.
And i(dee too) saw it for real this time, in class.
Wowee, even more hardworking than me :D

And riandy. i was fasting! stop sprouting dirty stuffs and making me and iddy sin luh ok. haahhaha. you - person. :P

ah,shiets.
♥

2008-01-09T20:54:00.001+08:00

I dont think this is funny at all, so cut the crap, looser.
You're irritating the wits out of me mansxzsz.

It saddens me a whole lot to see daddy sick.
Hope you get well soon, daddy. :D
Amin.

anyhoooooooooos, im so so so tired.

And i hope ree gets better cause the other day, dee was absent, and today ree is absent. And my sis is sick. wowish man. Alot of people are not healthy these days. i hope id maintain my health :DD

Anyway, new chem teacher.
The use to be student.
Goshes, even tho i never rly said this, but i think id prefer my old teacher ktnxbye.

And malay class was horror of the peribahasa test.
Ohhhohhh, and i like got an effing 22.5 out of 50 for compre, only of which 10 out of 25 was from summary.
Oh, i so know i suck ballz, dont i? D:

And its muharam tommorow. May god forgive all our sins and give us a full year of blessing.
In the name of allah we shall pray, amin :D
&me and dee are fasting ! yipeeeeyay.

♥
You know i dont deserve this.

2008-01-09T17:46:00.001+08:00

Cant.cope.with.it.all.

swear,dude.

To babylove

2008-01-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

Yes, i miss you, babylove.
And im so sorry for whatever happened okay?
I just want you to know that i love you with all my heart, and it has never been less than ever.
I miss you hell loads too, okeh?
Am hoping i can spare some moments with you :D
Well, for now, you take care, alright? :DD

goodnight,world♥

2008-01-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

A new cyberpal from nepal.
Damn weird how it happened.
So weird i never got to see his picture.
And so weird he dove into wanting to call me.
&its so buggy that he doesnt get me not having a webcam!
urgh. and the way he talks. haha. wooops.
So he videocall-ed me online.
And "ok, i saw the Nepalese already" :D

Anyways, that someone was a bugger today.
Stop asking me about what i told you already.
You didnt help me cheat, and not again.
Loooooser. hahhaa. Read this , you bugger!

I miss this someone, who cheers me up all the time.
DDD:

Ive got tons to do now!
&&ohhhh, my dream came true. soooo true. like how i pictured it.
jyeah.

♥

2008-01-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

Midnights exchanges of i love yous :D
i think its lovely.
(so what if you dont?)
Imy!

I love mom&dad.
They've been there for me when others werent.
& i think it matters most if i show them i do love 'em
and that i pay back their gratitude in the finest way possible :D

Anywaysssssssss, im so dead beat! Sighs, there's np tmr. Must remind myself to bring the necessities and urm yup, (not the nyaa thingy which i cant print). Oh sighs.

LE SIGHHHH!-as beatrice would put it ;PP

Ok, done.♥

2008-01-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

Sister on the bloody jiwang songs.

&yes, despite being caught up with my work(which im getting zero for, tho i did it with evry bit of effort but who cares right?!)
Suprisingly, i can relate to the song.
I feel so cocked up and lonely.

Damn♥

2008-01-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

When a stranger, an enemy becomes the closest of your friends.
Sometimes, life just brings you about suprises.
Sometimes, you bring it yourself.
Like how i just did.
Deepest secrets with someone unknown or so. :D

And selam gave dee this oh so sweet letter which almost alot of people read.
Awh, sweet really with all the grammatical errors.

Guess what?
I.cant.stand.it.

2008-01-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

Today was superb yaw. just the few moments with darling nabila and fee made me high :O
And i met love! wee :D for a while tho.
Well,its nice to have not to miss people i love.

Can i be random and just ponder upon a thing or two?
I love life, but i hope it'd be good to me

♥
pictures tmr!

If i dont wake up the next morn'

2008-01-06T09:36:00.000+08:00

Morning world!

Here's an online story :D
In 1975, a gay couple in my church told me about a young man who was
headed towards a life on the street. They were moving to California
and were concerned about his future. I met Patrick. He was 14,
living with a mother who was born hydrocephalic and capable of minimal
housekeeping skills. His father was dying of cancer. He had three
abusive brothers who had all been in or were on their way to prison
and a sister who was 11.

Pat was in and out of school. I worked with his parents to try to
stabilize his homelife. Pat's mental health care consisted of a
doctor who prescribed enough tranquilizers to keep his patients happy.
We were able to wean Pat from the high dosages and get better care for
him. Pat and I watched together as his father, Ed, faded slowly and
painfully. When Ed was transferred to Portland's hospital, Pat and I
would journey down to visit. Pat's father finally died when Pat
turned 16.

Pat's mom was unable to take care of the kids so Pat moved in with me
and I became for all intents his father. I finally got him in an
alternative school and tried to guide him towards his future. When
Pat turned 18, he got a job in Alaska at a fish packing plant. He was
very proud as we outfitted him with the gear necessary. After a short
time in Alaska, Pat called, begging me to rescue him and bring him
home.

The next "great move" was when Pat decided to go to Hollywood with a
friend and look up the couple who first told me of Pat's conditions at
home. He lived there for about a year before calling and asking for
rescue. Somehow, it seemed that disaster always followed him and I
could tell when things were not well. We always maintained our
father/son relationship. He would call or come over once or twice a
week when living in Seattle and call as often when he lived in
California and Hawaii.

When he was about twenty-two, after a number of failed relationships,
he found a partner. He went through formal "adoption" procedures to
take his partner's name. Pat became Nathan Vetter.
Pat was so frustrated that his mother *refused* to call him Nathan and
I just never could keep from calling him Pat. Nathan's partner
started having bizarre episodes of violence. They found he had a
brain tumor and went quickly mad, finally committing suicide. For the
nth time, I again "rescued" Pat.

I remember in 1984 when AIDS began its reign of terror, Pat and his
entire household caught a strange "flu" that seemed to linger for a
few months then pass. We all figure that is when they all became
HIV+. One of his housemates didn't die of AIDS, he was beaten to
death and dumped down an excavation pit. One by one, Pat and I have
watched his and my friends die, yet Pat had remained in pretty good
condition. In fact, Pat finally got control of a number of problems
he had. Alcohol had proved as disastrous to Pat as it had been for
his real father, yet Pat finally was able to control his drinking. He
was finally able to gain some real independence and take charge of his
own life. He has been proudly dragging me out to his house as he gets
each new thing. He proudly brought me out to breakfast last week and
asked me to sit in "His" chair, a nice soft recliner that Pat
obviously loved.

Pat called on Friday, talking about his planned trip to Germany. He
wanted to see something of the world while he was still healthy
enough.

This morning, Sunday, Pat's partner, Arvin, called. Arvin awoke this
morning and found Pat sitting in his chair. Pat had died in his
sleep.

Pat always loved camping. I first took him out camping when he was
16. We helped the, then new, gay campground at Index by clearing
campsites and digging firepits. Pat and his partner Alvin have been
going each year faithfully to Index. Pat had a special love for "the
enchanted forest" area at Index. Next weekend is the final weekend
for Index's gay campground as it will move to a new location. Next
weekend, we intend to take Pat's ashes to Index and let them become
one with the enchanted forest Pat loved so much.

RIP, nathan.

♥

2008-01-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

Hey. today was oh so great, yaw :DDD
At first it was real boring, with me not going out and all.
So then in the afternoon me, mum and bro decided to go out.
Went shopping and camwhored alot lahhh.
I bought a new guess bag, yaw! hee. so darn happy.
I was shocked tho, i could have died and peed in my pants when i left it at the foodcourt.
I ran straight up when i realise. I thank the kind cleaner who bothered to return it to me. I almost thought i wont get it back.
Haha, and i scolded a cyclist saying "hello, blind or what?" when i was actually in the wrong but the blurr face he was giving me was so weird yaww. haha.
Then after shopping at coax i decided to meet love up and see him play takraw.
Hrm, was short but was ok la. since i miss him so much!! huhu. :DDDD
So then im home sweet home watching friends now.

Im meeting fee tmr i guess! ahh, weekends.
And yes, homework not started.
Im panicking but procrastinating.
Oh weird.

Anyway, shiets man shiets. i sense a whole bad week next week. i dont know why.
And did i tell you guys of my bad dream. No, not that bad, but just utterly grosteque. oh, stupid. But i liked th dream i had the other time similar to this.
But this one, could have just made me puke non stop the whole night thru. When i woke up, i felt so nauseous mansxsz.

ok, im blabbering too much. Chiao!

♥

hellogoodbye

2008-01-04T19:33:00.001+08:00

Today school made me high.
At home, chocolates made me high :D oh, and bubble tea! heh.
Oh my, mission talk was teh-shitxzxszx yaw! really loved it and mr hotstuff, duh, who like so waved bye to me. haha. ok whatever.
And like cca orientation was boleh tahan la, fun !!
Till that person came and yea, as usual, spoils all. :P
Oh, we so hate him. you know i know seh.

MISSIONTALKMISSIONTALKMISSIONTALK.
Ahh, still hyper about it.
Anyway to syasya, stay strong huney! we are all the for you, the whole school is :D
We know you're strong, you can pull thru anything!
♥

And recess was nice too.
Haha, a dick tru ur eardrums! omg ewwww.
And tensome!!!! Ive never heard of it ok.
And dee owes me tak boleh angkat beb! you know.
alamak, feel like want to smack her dahi.

Hey love, everything's going to be fine ok? :D
I would love you still, and i know you would too.
Cheers.

p/s-did i mention mission talk was the shit!
ok, yes it is. And like haha. myrah and i were pulling along people to dance/jump with us :DDD hahah, cant help the hyped up feeling, ya know.

and myrah,HOLY SEKEMOLIEEE LA SEHHHH! hahah. ok ive repeated this in two posts.
Shall end it all.

OHMYTUHAN, TGIF!!
TMR'S A WEEKEND=MORE SLEEP,and yes fcking hw. D:

♥

2008-01-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

Im so bored;
-with my prepaid low
-with hardly any of my friends online
-with a stack of homework.
but lucky me verena darling lent me her storybook which is oh so nice! :D
Still, im dead bored. I got tired of blog hopping dead blogs and thus am watching online shows. adios amigos!

♥

2008-01-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

Mission talk tmr! yay, no hmwks :D
I hate e5's thursday's timetable. hate it so badly, urgh.
Anyway school today with ten people in the class is oh...erm..lovely.
Duh, world without boys is a much better place. =D hahahah.
no?

Finally mom got sick after taking care of three sick family members D:
Everybody is sick right now, urgh.

ooooh, met love just now :D WEe-.
And dearest fee msged me and so did ree.
Ahh, i love em :DDDDD

And hahha. MYRAH!HOLY SEKEMOLIEEEEE LA SEH!

2008-01-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

Goshes, im suffering.
Yes, im procrastinating the homeworks again. But that's just because i miss that someone badly. urgh.
Haha, damn, myrah says she's bringing school books tmr. What about me?
Dont know just yet :D

Niteys!

FIRST DAY.

2008-01-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hey. My first day of school...was urmm, not bad la. FUN actually, getting to meet people i miss. :D And like, can you guys believe having NPCC on the first day ? o.0 oh yes i did. D: but its ok! i like my np babes, yaw! So as mr chia claimed, its gear 1, so no teaching for the day. Neither tmr cause there's some mission talk for the girls. But well of course, i do have homeworks. Loads of them*pouts* I know, blame me for not finishing holiday homeworks.
So to compliment the first day of school, me, dee and the bisu girl ree went to eat kfc! yes. first and last for the month?! hehe. :D Then met love and went home. :]

So before it slips my mind,

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY ONE AND ONLY! <3

Im super mad to the super big SSSSSSS.

2008-01-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

I AM SO FUCKING MAD, with nurulshafiqa bte subadi, swear. But no matter, i still love her and thanks for the early wish la ok ;D But crap sial, you should know better. hmpfh. Sedih sial aku. hahahhhaa.

Talking to aini over msn :DDDDDDDDD
She only talks when she and ayil is on good terms la. thanks eh. hahah.
She went to marquee D: ahh, the agony, the utter agony D:

Im so sad. so so sad. hahha.

But whatever,half an hour to my anniversary :DDDDDDD
SO yay!

♥

WELCOME 2008 :D

2008-01-01T12:44:00.000+08:00

I wrote my resolutions on paper, but it got lost. so hrmm. I need to make one now.

1.I still need to loose weight(and stop thinking that its ok if i dont)
2.Pay attention in class and do all my homeworks(ini susah skit, but now i cant sms darling, i think its easier)
3.Stop having problems with friends and hoping the bond would last.
4.Start loving all my subject teachers(and yes, some of you would know who im talking about)
5.Dont get into trouble with sarah toh and ng bak hon.(goodie, gooodie, good girllll)
6.OMGOMG, NO PC KAYS?!
7.Not be late for school?(this is so possible if i have a motorbike/car pleaseee?)
8.Why is this all school related damn fck? Ok this is so not a proper one but i shall continue.
9.Be a better daughter, listen to want my parents say.
10.Save up yo!!
11.NO IMPULSE SHOPPING AND NO GOING OUT EVERY SINGLE DAY.(with the excuse of the first week, of course :D)

and for now, id go with that. Can you believe life's gonna be dull and like a fcking rush for me?!

So now i shall blog about yesterday. Which i never even meet fee. hahah.
Me and love started off to marina, and decided upon eating at breeks. Well, we both ordered the cream sauce pasta. And bought fcking tall smoothies(as tall as ur textbook or so) and guess what, it is so effing deceiving! Cause it aint smoothies bitches. Its filled with AVOCADO INSIDE! urgh. sucks bitch, sucks. (swear dad would have drank both if i were to give it to him). Seriously, we didnt touch our drinks at all.Fourteen bucks wasted for that avocado mind you. But well, the place was okay la. Service was abit slow(which we had to pay $4 for service?!) hahahaha. So now as me and love would put it, lesson learnt. The actual plan was seoul garden actually but im glad we didnt cause it would have been a waste cause after just one serving of spaghetti, we couldnt even finish it.

Then we headed to golden village to meet mim and his girl to buy the movie tickets. While lining up at the long long queue, guess who i saw?!!! WAHIDAHHH!! haha. i scream and squeezed her youknowhat. hahaha. i miss her so damn much la seh. She was with submarine and her sister. heh. They wanted escape actually. Anyhoos, they caught the same movie as i, only at the faster slot. Love couldnt watch AvP cause im not sixteen yet, eh? hahah. :P So we went to starbucks while mim and his girl went to makan. Swear they took so long. Finally they came. Which we both have so much time to waste. In total, me and love sat there for about two hrs plus(i think). At least mim and his girl had walk breaks. haha.

I am Legend,is scary ok. I know, stupid cause everyone who had watched it would tell others that it is sad. fine, it is. But hey, the review did mention it is scary. Actually no la, only the stupid sound effects made it scary. I think love got super irrtated by me and my constant terperanjanting and (even) scream. haha. sorry, but you did terperanjat also kay! hmpfh.

So then we had nothing more to do, thus headed to pasir ris. Upon reaching at whitesands, we saw ben and jerry's and headed there. (cause the plan was to get haagen dazs). Love bought ice cream but i didnt(cause i had this itchy feeling that i scared it wont be nice(the cheeseshake). So guess what, yerp even the ice cream love bought wasnt nice! Another $5 wasted. He choose some weird cherry gracia flavour or sth. Me and his friend didnt even want to help him finish. So we all waited for 403 to get to the pit.So we arrived and we sat, ate and slack. etctec. At eleven arnd there, we walked all the way from right at the end of pasir ris park to the other, swear man(and we didnt do this just once ok). Wanted to head to d'marquee for countdown and to meet that fika. but urh, the security thingy just took up too much time so in the end, we all got caught up outside so yea, counted down outside.So then i gave up calling the woman cause she's inside. Well,i didnt miss out much cause the genres of songs were SO OFFFFFFFFF, so like what can we dance to yea? haha. Then like we all headed back to the pit... Etcetc, gosh, my legs were killing me yaw, and like me and love both got so tired and just couldnt wait to go home. heh. Planned to meet fika at spider web BUT BOTH OUR FONES GOT MALAYSIAN RECEIVERS and we couldnt contact. When i went there, she wasnt and stuff. so yea. At six am, we finally headed home while some of them were cleaning up the pit. Time really flies yaww.(even when you're bored) So i went home and sleeeeeeeep duh, but woke up when everyone did. And suprisingly aint tired.

Now, im chatting with dearest fatin. oh how i miss everybody oh so much D:
School tmr! and i dont care, i have plans to make sec four life fun. woohoooo.

♥

p/s- And thanks dek, for singing me to sleep with all the songs you know(and yes, which you ever so often forget the lyrics and wake me up then) , but just so you know, i love you alot, and spending time with you means more than anything to me, hun :D Happy one year in advance, baby. Hope you like the gifts :D ILY♥

i love i love i love

2007-12-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

Haha. funny eh myrah... it used to be(and still is) you who jarang update. now im with the symptoms too. haha. if not, at least three posts a day la seh!
Haha, well people, finally ive been busy out and enjoying after i recovered.
So today, went out the whole day.
First up was with sister to amk. Walked around, bought some stuff(and yes, stupid disgusting food) then to bishan. Walk somemore. buy some stuffs. Then to tamp. Chilled a bit. Waited for fee. Then we jalan-jalan a whole lot looking for her stuffs. -.- hahhaa. Then met love for a bit and talk about stuffs.
&nabdarla! I want you to stay strong my love :D You've made a wise move and im proud of you ♥

Haha. and humyrah!!! geek glasses and long necks are loved. ;PPPP

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE IN ADVANCE PEOPLE.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
sucks to be sixteen sitting for os, i know. But never fret-ed counting down and heading to the PARTAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYE. :D

2007-12-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

Being home taking care of three bloody hell kids, or shall i say monyets, doesnt help at all.

Lest, happy 14th birthday nabilah! Sorry im sick, and ive got nothing for you.
Maybe new year okay? Love you sister.[you know im lying ;P]

I hate my brother worse than an enemy right now.
He just boils every drip of blood i have.
Damn!

♥

2007-12-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

TOday was such a horror i never want it to happen again.
hysterical etcetc.
Thank you love for being there when i needed you.
From the doctor to the hospital.
Lucky i didnt get warded :]
However, was it a wise choice to lie so i could go home? XD
Cause im still in pain now, tho not as bad.
Im really worried cause my condition's not letting me finish my homework.
Yes people, i cried when the doc wanted to poke me with the oh so huge needle at my hand. heh.
But it was fun getting pushed around in my wheelchair :D
The nurses were oh-so-nice.

well, gtg.

2007-12-27T21:44:00.001+08:00

That full moon night.
I gazed upon the shimmering stars and the beyond wonderful moon.
Praying this pain would go away as i sail trough the thoughts of you in my mind.
All the pictures started to blur;
Then i fell into this dark dark pit.
I closed my eyes, knowing this is the end.

AGHAST.TIMOROUS.SOLICITOUS

Just completely confused.

i feel like im loosing my mind in time.
Spell me as unprepared for school, okay.
Im just too beat to care anymore.
Seriously.

♥Why?

2007-12-27T18:44:00.001+08:00

Stupid stupid stupid sickness.
No, aint going to the doc's.
Argh, stupid.

Major cramps

2007-12-26T16:31:00.000+08:00

I hate what's happening to me..
Let this be over soon.
Rawrrh.

2007-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Last Christmas i gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away.
So this Christmas, to save me from tears
I'm gonna give it to someone special<3

♥

2007-12-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

The chalet made me feel better. Hell yea, but hope its not temporarily.
Went for it only halfway so i didnt really enjoy much only i like it when i finally get to see the relatives. Im always known for the one being too damn busy for all these and never turning up. Its like i dont care, but in actual fact, i do. :D So yea, i miss my nieces, my cousins, my aunts and my late relatives. Every one of them D:
Haha, okay, its soo weird.

goodnight♥
need my beauty sleep so i can recover :DD

2007-12-25T16:00:00.001+08:00

how wonderful it is when you're sick.
ya right.

2007-12-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Gee. says:ZOMGGGGGGGG.
Gee. says:DEE
Gee. says:IM ELATED
Gee. says:haha
Wahidah. says:HAHAHAHAS.
Wahidah. says:Why!
Gee. says:using IE was a whore to me. always lagging and not being able to open pages, then sometimes, close down my work jst like tht. ppl have always said try firefox and etc..then im like wtf.like mepek je. i actually just tried it and im like,WOW.MAGIC!!!!!!!! yayness.
Gee. says:woah 0.o Gee. says:yayeeee
Gee. says:happy me ;D
Wahidah. says:HAHAHHA
Wahidah. says:WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

AND SO HAYANI IS RIGHT. omg, hayani geeeeeniiiiiiuzzzzzz laaa seh :P

♥

2007-12-24T15:41:00.000+08:00

HOW NICE.
i bumped into dee,ree and nabila :D
haha. well for dee and ree, it wasnt exactly bumping.
They screamed my name a few times til i actually heard.
At the back of my mind 'crazy bitches screaming'
hahhaa. no la,kidding jer :P love you three!

wish the weather's gonna be alright ♥

[edit]
CONNECTION SUCK BALLZ! ITS IRRITATING THE WITS OUT OF ME. STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID.and why is my sibs reaching so lateeeeeee?!!!
[/edit]

2007-12-24T10:09:00.001+08:00

wow, six days.

2007-12-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Why are food during countdown so expensive.
I mean, on average now, its like $330 per head. Thts like too much compared to the original.
Unless the food's tht fantabulous and urm...alot la. which i doubt cause for some, there's actually time limit la. siao.
And like vivo cntdwn is a nono cause i didnt get the tix for we were too lazy. awh.
now im stck with nothing.
shits.

Andandand i didnt realise im having 8 days left when my hw is all undone D:
Bad news, bad news, bad bad news.

2007-12-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

Its sad to see rocky rships.
Sad to see them end.
Sad to see mariages break apart.
Sad to see things dont work out.
But its all happening infront of me.
And mum's word's making me more paranoid.
SAd, it is. Very very sad.
Especially when im typing out the divorce letter.
It hurts,it hurts so bad.
I feel like its me.
God, bless me with a smooth marriage despite whatever.
Too soon to speak, yes? heh.

♥

2007-12-23T15:04:00.001+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooo to me. Yessah, i found my usb cable at the bunch of xbox&ps2 wires. hahhha so happy. and now, the pictures would do the honours la. Well, it'd be crazy if i were to put up all so like urm, here goes some of it. :D HEHEHEHHEHE. and did i tell you guys sth interesting. some minah tudung(yes, those rly minah ones) fancy saying i look like a bitch when i wear tudung. pardon, but you should go get a mirror much? :] ahhh. much better.

And this is fuad.
And this is zahir.
This is me in tudung. Haha,when i went for the briefing the other day.
This is my littlest irritant also known as my brother.

This is my sister. Sadly, my other sister didnt snap a pic with me, so boooh.

To sentosaaaa :Dwhile waitin for fai and paula who were eating.and pardon the messy hair ya'll.

For a change ehhh.. Super duper bright day, which inturn rained, thereafter.Happy five friends :Dwhile waiting for the mister.

To the most fcked up random pose.& he still yet to arrive?!Come see mr blurr man!! hahah. (dek, dont kill me kay). This is like super candid la.Nightime by the bay :D with three stupid adekadeks who was drinking in front of us.And yes, did i mention i hate reps and yeah, duh, drinkers? :P

Homework-ing for me :D awh, thanks dek :D hahah. and someone said no to whipped cream?! hahhaha. :P

Meet fika and nabs. :DIts raining yaw. and yes,aini wasnt present.Nab said this picture looked so "bestfriends forever" as caption. hahaha. funny.If you're wondering, fika's the third parteyyyyyy. hahah.My one and only, dramamama! haha.

fika liked this shot better than the next. and yay! aku tinggi :DDyes, sth is wrong.As it says, i like to think i dress quite minimally :}my fav act :D

My sweetest sin♥

I spoilt the picture with the tag la.

And im lazy to upload lagi bynk2 so here goes all. i Think mard is a sweet boyfriend.NOT. hahaha.

♥♥

2007-12-23T13:44:00.000+08:00

DOUBT MY MOOD WOULD BE ANYWHERE NEAR OK TODAY.
fck, ive got too much to think of today.
Yes, ive been gaining weight.
Yes,ive got so much to do for my homework,and not mentioning COPY cause rly, im hopeless.
Yes,i still have no aim in life.
And of course, im your biggest looser.

♥These are broken everyday.

2007-12-23T10:58:00.000+08:00

Since i didnt read the news, and mard just told me ystd, now i know the reason to why hady won.
haha. backfired plan.
boooya.

To the 22nd of december 2007

2007-12-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

Heyyaw!!

The net's being such a pisser. Really man, im hating it to the extreme can? :{
SOoooooooo, the outing was fucking superb yaw!
Despite dyk only turning up when we've just reach, despite ninie not being able to tag along.
Ahh, i had the time of my life?![ok, ini da mcm phm]
But well of course, i missed tht special someone.
So yeah, there was just so much laughters, rly.
Didnt want the goodbye but yea, have to.
So now im home,super tired but still online.
Im like a tech addict, yaw!
And jst nw was filled with pictures.
But again, the usb's missing yaw! :{
To summarize, it was talks and chitchats,walk arounds town, (and no i didnt go for the flea market), having a bite and starbucks,macafe and having dinner at lau pa sat and etcetc. of course, there was toilet shots and urm staircase shots. but no, wasnt at the fullerton hotel :{ cause rain was pouring and we're alrd craving for lau pa sat.Ended it all by meeting love for a quick while to sum it all up.

A great day spend with my girls, not all tho.
Haha. and to the guys: sorry you were'nt invited :P nehnehpoooot.

♥♥

2007-12-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Chris crocker can be really touching despite being oh so insane.
I think britney appreciates him alot, no?
Yesterday's performance by despots was nice.
I also liked Syltra Lee's performance.
She's like good yaw.

So anyway, im like gonna meet my beloved darlings today! Ones who ive missed alot alot alot. i like so cant wait.
But urm, on the other hand, homework has been a neglection than.urgh.
you guys should know me well luh. I like to delay homeworks. heh.
On a different note, im broke, very. hahhaha.
BUT THERE'S A FLEA MARKET AT ORCHARD RD TODAY?!how can i miss it for the love of godddddd :[
&also, i miss my dearest so badly.

Crap i lost the usb cable,so like i so cant update pictures. I know, boring. *roll eyes*

♥♥

The heroes

2007-12-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

Thanks love! :D
sooo the banyak luh okei.
i owe you the world. hah. mcm pahammmmmmm.

Anyway, zomg, kelly's anisah's cousin.
and so is shafiq.
(and ermmm..who else is shafiq's cousin in hai sing?!)
Yea, main point is, weird la.
Hahaha.
Am so sad i didnt get to (censor) shimmy today. :{
But she got me. hahah. assssss!

okeh,im officially running out of time for whatever homeworks that i have to do, seriously to the tak bedek uh. wahlaoehhhh, mcm knnbccb !

♥Dekdekmyitek.

Period

2007-12-21T10:31:00.001+08:00

Stop procrastinating.
Stop digressing.
Fuck.

2007-12-20T14:10:00.000+08:00

Helping out was not bad luh.
At first i felt awkward la.(i think der was some girls gossiping abt me, right dee?)
Then we started the job and all.
Quite fun uh ushering. get to see evthevth there. heh.
So nothing much to say here but there's this one kambing which is so the tak baik la.
The pakcik i attended to was like rich can. buy three kambing seh! wahhhhhhh.
Then so the third one was the evil one which splatted mud onto my tudong,baju,seluar and FACEEE!! wahhh. crap. hahah. i was like "EWWWWW"ing all the way but yea, i shut uped after tht.
Then yea, amalina actually lost one side of her slipper and had to go home using slipper toilet masjid! hahah. and it was too big for her. kesian sehh.
I like the time when me, dee and amalina was going home. we stood outside the kandang. freaking funny la the kambengs. The in-charge was , i think, tryin to count them and move them one by one or sth(at first they queued very neatly) when they started copy cat-ing each other and before u know it the whole kandang was squeezed at one side.ok you wont get it until you see it.
but it was so funny. and now i know why they always say kambeng always follow only.
which is so true.
and they shit alot, mind you.

There's three types of shitting i saw.
The large one which very big feaces the medium with medium and randomly, some of them would have this funny shapped feaces. It appears as 100 balls of (youknowwhat). And interestingly, the balls are all so small and of the same shape and very very circular. And when they get sembelih-ed, most of them would shit it out. Very disgusting rly. heh. but they're so kiutttttttttttttttttttt. :O ok, bedek.
hhahaha.ok, thts all.
&i made few new friends.heee.and one makcikfriend. ahhahaa.ok da.

i cant wait to see loveeeeeeeeeeeeee.miss you miss you like taik.

oh did i mention we had hymen, virginity and etcetc talks at the masjid. what a nice place la, dee. hahahha.so i now know the stuffs about hymen better. it sucks to be a sportsactive person then?! haha.

♥

2007-12-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

Am shock of the news of jamie's pregnancy. Ive got so much to say, yet nothing at all.
Anyway, ive been bored the whole day(cept for the time i met love since i was rotting.)
I dont know but i suddenly have this thoughts that zaps and go in me.
I dont know what & why.
Confusing, really.

and i love reading the comments the people are giving. its so,real. hahhaha.

Baby , please say you can take me there.

♥confusion's a bitch

i miss them all.

2007-12-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY GIRLS.
bsides the np people.
I MISS FIKA!
I MISS MARD!
I MISS NABILA!
I MISS AMALINA[YES, SUPRISE]
I MISS AINI[LONG GONEE].
I miss the cz crew.
The other crew;

IM CURRENTLY LOOKING FORWARD TO...
The Np swimming thing,23rd dec.
Venue;psir ris mrt @ 11 am.
to wear jst tshirt and shorts.

The laydees outing with cz girls.
on the 26th dec.
not much info yet.

The 2e1 beach outing(2nd dae)
weehoooo.

and today's movie thingy, i wont attend anyhoos. :]
ive watched alvin and the chipmunks la, ketinggalan people. hahaha.

not forgetting to have a day to meet fatin darling.
and another to meet huda dear :D
AND FINISH UP MY HOMEWORK.
okgo.

2007-12-18T13:09:00.000+08:00

Mieeerahhh's post is so damn long.
yes, about np.
Yup, id miss all of it too. hha. HEY MYRAH, WE ALL CAN BE V.I(s) CAN WE???? :]]]
ALL THE NP GIRLS LAH! HAHAHHAA.

AND YES, I LOVE CAPSLOCK OKEH, MY BAD.
ANYWAY, MYRAH AND HAYANI IS GETTING EXCITED WITHOUT ME LA.
I LIKE DONT KNOW WHY BUT YEA.
IVE NO MONEY TO SHOP, AND YES I CANT MAKE IT ON THE 26TH.
HOWEVER 27TH IS FREEE :]
AND MYRAH, SHUT UP ABT STUDYING AND HWS OK, YOU SMART ONE.
YOU'RE ALMST DONE LA.IM STRUGGLING TRU.
AND YOU'RE SMART ENOUGH, YOU DONT NEED TO STUDY.

wELL, I MISS ALL MY GIRLS. I RLY DO.
BESTFRIENDSFORLIFE. And this is to myrah :

When going there right ? :D

Admist being so fcked up and crying..

my girls, my life.mirror shot, a must.

Its all about npcc:D

AND GUESS WHAT PEOPLE, MY FONE DIED ON ME, SO GDLUCK ON MSGING ME AH.
stupid phone.told you we werent meant to be.
stupid asssssssssssssssss.
hmpfh.

♥its all a broken vow.

They said hello goodbye.

2007-12-18T12:56:00.000+08:00

Ive set it straight and strong i think.
God, please help me through.
Im such a bitch i dont even listen to myself at times.
Well, i hope not, not this time
:D

Three two one, you're my number one.

2007-12-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

Hey. today went pretty well.
First up in the morning met ree and her sister at tamp interchange and headed for the talk(which is somehow boring bt yea),heh.
Then off for home. yes, there werent any eatouts at food junction or so cause urmyea, something cropped up?heh.
Then, as love put it"meet one hr, study one hr,sleep one hr" hahhahah.mcm phm only
Met him(in tudung) at the playground with brother and lil neighbour.They wrestled and wrestled and played and i watched.Adli is a porno guy. He flashed his butts at me and dekk. hahhaha.PORN. and he showed me his unexisting man boobies.yeah.
Then me, love,brother and neighbour came up to my crib and we ate. Yeah, so much for eating uh. i like couldnt stuff the spicy food inside me.huhu.
Then went down again and me and love talked about things he had in mind the day before.
hmmmm,yeah. Then it struck me my eng hws were due tmr.
So like, i had him over again, to help me with my homework. yes, i admit, he did the most work. haha. i fell asleep halfway siaaaaaaa. then done with tht, went down again.
Talk , talk talk and i was real tired.guess what? we both ter-tidur. hhhahah. when i opned my eyes i was like shit "6.30"?hahah. im suppose to go out fr shopshop with mumsy and sister. so then headed home. And am getting ready to go out.

I jst wanna say,i rly love you sidek.
And did i tell you guys tht the first thing my sister mouthed when she opened her eyes from sleep was" someone's close gonna pass away". It scared the shit out of me and my maid. hah. she dreamt her bottom tooth fell out and the eldies says tht it means someone close is gonna pass away. and its true cause the other time she dreamt tht , my niece passed away."
And yesterday, out of nowhere, she said she misses my late niece.
weird huh? :P

♥okgo!

2007-12-16T08:02:00.000+08:00

The other time i slept at five woke up at nine.
This time i slept at three woke up at seven.
Swear its getting onto my eyebags people.
Arent holidays meant for sleep?
Irony..

Another day yet again...

2007-12-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

So today was urm,ok lah.
First up i had nana over at my place!!!!!!!Fcuk i miss tht babe.
Da brubah giler la soyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! wtfish :P
Then yadayada, fuad came over to tompang toilet then i lepaked with zahir and him.
Then came along my lil bro and my jiran.
Played like monkeys.
Then love came and we headed to ws mac.
Sth not so nice happened, bt whatever.
So etctec, ate and all, then headed to playground to lepak.
Things started going so fine here :] *inserts biggggg biggg grin*
heeee. I dont know why i wasnt feeling so good at first.
but yea, happy ending with the little toy car.

Pictures with fuad & zahir is still in my fone uh. lazyyyyy to upload :]

♥♥

When they said it all;

2007-12-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my day out :D
It started off with almost being late for the movie.
I like totally rushed there.
And when most of us got seated, the movie started just on time ( you know after they present the director's name and etctec-like credits uh wtv).yea, so it was like super just nice.
OH by the way, we watched alvin and the chipmunks which is totally to die for cause the chipmunks are like cute like that. And they referred to me,love,fai&his 'three wives' and his adopted motherless son.

So after the movie,we walked around, and which we entered the adidas shop like so many the times cause paula couldnt decide what to get for a jacket.
Then after walking around we chilled.Then walked to plaza sing and walk somemore(i swear love was dying alrd cause he didnt have enough sleep due to SOCCER!shuckss.)
And fai got a pretty lil slipper :] which i had to carry alot.
Then after walking around,we already started being hungry people and yadayada.walked along orchard there and headed to cine and ate pastamania. AND DAMN, just cause fai just got his bonus, it was on him. hahahha. like thanks yawww, not cheap you know.
(and btw, some of the friends left alrd here. left with 5 of us)
Its here when we started socializing. heh.
Ok. We started our long talks about a very stupid topic{that is after the gossiping topic abt types of people). but i also dont know how it started. conclusion;zmn skrng bynk budak merepek.fullstop. hhhahahah.

GUESS WHAT. WHO WANTS TO HEAR A STUPID STORY. I feel like tellinggg.hahha.
Kay, paula was saying sth stupid la making fun of me and love.[or sort of]
so i was laughing my ass of when*bang* i hit my head on the table at pastamania.
Crap sia, tak style kan? hahahhahah. and their immediate reaction was of course laughing but(so was i) paula said kan, true right. hahhahahah. wtfish man babe.

Then we wanted to FINALLY change the topic to ghost story but we then decided to find another location to chill at first.
Thus we walk to youth scape park and sat at the kopitiam and ordered drinks.
Then i hated this part so much cause they all have so much experiences and so did their friends.arhhhh. i was rly scred tht i told my whole family nt to sleep just yet until i get hm(evn tho it was getting late.) i was rly rly scred tht when i entered my house, i did greet and did wash my feet thereafter{it is said to be good la}. i made sure love sent me to my doorstep seh.(i mean it was after midnight on a thursday night somemore!crap la)
hahaha. but fitri(i think thts her name) gave a no link story to end the ghost story session la. Its like. "oh ok. so your point is...?" oh its the first time my dad heard me say pukimak!and we're all like "ahhhhh, okayyyy." then fai added "i heard u say it once t many times alrd"
And fai also got tell one stupid story. which rly gave alot of suspense til me and fit actually screamed and love was pulled aback. but guess what, in the end, it was a fckin joke! wth kan? hahahhahaha.
So then it was life stries and such and we realised its alrd 11 plus and we better head off. So yea, took the bus home and rched suprisingly quite fast uh.

Then me and my sister played the comp and soon we got bored so we got - to call my sister. You can call it a prank(without him knwing it). fucking funny la sial! remmbring his laughs and whtnots. hahahhahahhahaha. Even after putting down the phone, we pranked him tru sms. hahhaha. dumbo!!

So i finally slept nearing 5 but wake up like arnd nine but the lil sister's still pigging out.GUESS WHAT. MUMSY BOUGHT TWO NEW GSHT STRY DVDS!weeehoooo.
hhahah, step i like but later scream alot.
did i mention my sister had to be there when i needed the toilet yesterday?
hahahhahahahah. i know, pretty stupid :D

ok,go.♥

LOVED TODAY YEAH BAYBEH

2007-12-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

ME and cute cute leeya/my nabila darling :D
So started of the day meeting my dearest leeya.
Oh baybeh, i missed her tons. :D
So we totally caught up on stuffs abt -.
Damn,girl. im really sorry ive not really been there during those times but you know ive tried my best.
So ive got so much to say, but its ok.I really hope you're standing strong on your own two feet now. You know youve got me anytime anywhere you need me. A true friend would do jst anything for another right ? :D oh leeya, i cant say how much i love you.truly.So went bugis street and junction t hunt for fauzul's shades. Then went to tampines mall to print the picture and wrote the note. :D Sweet banget tau.Tho it was jst two of us, it was fun rly. She's funny at times. heh. And yea,beyond words i love her.just like how much she loves fauzul.

Up next, aku bermeet up dengan dee somewhere near starbucks. Waited for tht ree who was utterly utterly late. Dalah kiter postpone pasal die. lambat ngn tk blaja sngt pon psl die. so caught up with what was long long needed. Im really sorry too girl, ive not been there for you for quite sometime after our little arguement. Im really guilty about not knowing all this earlier. I hope you would share with me as soon as it happens so i can be there for you. :] i love you darling dee,i rly do. And i missed you alot.I hope im a significant figure in your life cause i rly wanna try my best to make you feel good when youre down, turn your smile around, but miracles dont happen so i hope what ive done is ample :D So yea,then ree's fone got services twice seh people. twice!i hope her brain goes for the servicing next. she rly need a lot done, eh? hahahhahahahha. ktawe ke mengilai nie? hahahhah :D
I rly enjoyed my time in the container. hahahhhah. with Giant ree,her sis,her cuzzie and my dearest hippo :D Funny moments shared. Gossips(tk uh, bdek jerr) and etc![yes, ghost talks included] Ended off with a sweet goodbye and message. yes, ive learned how much you girls mean to me :} and it'll forever be that way, loves.

Then was pissed off time. hahahah. eh mimi? hahhah. kidding. Then like finally, someone decided to give me a call after finishing his bende2 then we met at arnd 10plus eh? hahhaa.Wah ive got to tell you manszxzzzxzxz, i was duper scared at some point of time cause of the ghst stry we had. And even sillier, i was scaring him, when halfway, i myself got scared -.-i know, its so like me kan? heh. but tkper.
So yadayada,he and his hungry stomach went t meet matiin at kopitiam and afterwhich they should be heading back t camp.

And since im writing abt the people i miss, i must add on with this group of people.

YES, OH YES.my 2e1 babes. sorry, im using the lappy now so i currently dont have our picture here. so yea. Here it goes.

Affifah
hey redstuff. hahahha. your face always turns red what. cant blame me for calling you that. Anyways, yea, we had our own tiffs in the past years but weve all put it behind us now, right? i rly liked the time at hk. You know, knwing we're still as good as new :D i miss you oh so much, just like the rest. I just want you to know you're not forgotten ok? you mean a priceless jewel to me,rly. :D tkcr hun. And well wishes to you and your mister.

Fatin
Oh IVE GOT TOO MUCH TO SAY BABE. my favourite favourite boyfriend,and cousin! suprisingly we've hardly met as cousins. in fact never bumped at all ,aye? but i love you still. so so much. its rarely that we have heart to heart and i hope we do soon.i miss you cause i didnt c u at all this holiday. rawrrr.i hope next yr we'll have alot of studyDATES ok? :D ending up into crap talks and etc. I hope to have a day out with you sometime soon. Rly.LOVEYOUDARLAHONEYSMUAKKKSZ ;}

Hayani
Yea babe, we had so much planned for this holiday, but when ? you name me a suggestion uh?with whomever to tag along. Then we can confirm it asap. And maybe, well most prolly if it rains, we'll try to play in the rain ok?i know it feels so nice. :D i rly miss times with you. you knw, lower sec when i sit bside you and i knew so much abt you. then at hmly, when you're oh so studious and me and fatin would be the forever monkey of the class. and like so sorry at times i turn out to be such a pisser or damn irritating or dont know how to buat my kerje but yea, i get distracted with my bffatin so easily! hahahha. :D ily.

Humairah
Oh baybeh, i miss the EVERY SECOND of precious love we shared. Seriously, you're one of my best girlfriends ever. Especially that we're so the same. hahaha. Kan? You never fail to make me think of myself. hahahahah. no la, kidding. But yea, i miss shopping trips with you.mugging with you. gossiping with you. being angry with you. sleeping with you(camp&melacca,yup)and yea,planning about the future life with husbands and all with you. Yes oh yes, YOURE SO GREATLY MISSED MY DEAR. if i had one wish, i would want this to happen all over again. Never have i regret having this fship with you. Tho we're not tht close anymore,tho we have lil fights of our own, i want you to know tht truly, you mean no less than you did before. Nothing, nothing would ever change that fact. And im sorry if i wasnt tht much of a good friend, but i'd try to be kay, bestfriend :D

Khairunnisa.
my dear khairunnisa :] You've helped me countless of times,in so many ways. Ive no limit in saying thanks and showing my gratitude to you. Tho we have contradicting opinions at times, we've got same thoughts on some things, still. Np drew me closer to you, showed me to love you more.Well yea, i did. The camp i was with you and all.The same group, evth. I appreciate those times.You stood by me like how a friend would. thank you, siti :D with love, jihan.

kimmy.
MY FAVOURITESTTTTTTTTTT BYOTCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.ah yessah, there's so much to type i dont know where to start. you still owe a blading outing with me laaaah darla. I miss you like i dont know how much but yea, its too much to count. ahahhahaha. She's my pretty lil angel in disguise la. Well, hope hols for you is wayy better now thts christmas is nearing. :] toodles.

Nabila
I wasnt so close to you until last year. And then even closer this year. Ive told you my DEEPEST secret only few knows off. I rly like being your friend. Tho we're worlds apart, we comprimise most of the time, and ive enjoyed being your classmate more than anything :D i hope we can take our friendship a step further in the upcoming year :] much love.

Rafidah
Hey my favourite garfield.Seriously, ive loved you just like the rest. Really loved the times spent. The LAUGHTERS WITH YOU. gosh, i still can picture you laughing now. you're zee cutest, babe. heh.Yea, i want to have what we had back, if ever possible. well i know, this holiday definAtely i wont c u , u bz woman. I rmmbred always wanting to be very close to you. but damn, it was so difficult to happen. But i appreciate what we had and all. I thank god for lettin me have a friend like you. AND A SMARTYPANTS AS WELL. :P

There, in alphabetical order uh seh :D
And there's so much more, i dont know who else to write on. So for now, this is it.

And Beyy just gave me a call :D Ohhwell,hope he's doing jst fine with tht two pratas in his stomach now. Hehe . Jngn luper aku sudah. hahha. Da ckp serious tawwwwwwww(inside joke)

SELAMAT MALAM, DUNIAA!! :D

So much, just too much perhaps?

2007-12-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

So much's in my mind now.
Crap feeling.
However,I&mum are okay now :D
I need a day out for fun&peace.
Heh, and ive got to link up so many many people. huhu.

Stupid, why the music player's playing all the old old songs, and not mentioning so so so sentimental; a reason to cry,no?:}

♥Baby,im evth bcause you loved me

i love you

2007-12-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE DOESNT WANT ME TO MAKE THE POSTS DISAPPEAR!HAHA.
go read my history la gund.
You're not a fan of my blog aper, kankankan?
Hehe.Beyyyyyyyyyy. Thanks for the piggyback all the way home ehhhh? :P
BUT I HATE YOU STILL OKEH. stupidstupidday.
WAR AT THE TAGBOARD UH BEB!

AM GOING TO FINALLY MEET MY TWO KENTALS TMR TMR TMR :]
WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. *SHAKES BOOOBIESSSS*
hah. so the takperlu but its ok.
and yani, i still need to meet you up.

im having terrible cramps in my perut now.
i bet its cause someone lost his fone *roll eyes*

♥goodnightworld.
p/s-did i mention im on a war with mumsy cause of my lil bro?shietttt.

The apple of my eyes

2007-12-11T10:17:00.000+08:00

Yes people, this is the dude that doesnt know the difference between the word make up and make out. This is also the dude who uses umbrella under shelter(as you can see). And also the dude who confuses the word wrecks with reeks.
This is my boyfriend that im deeply in love with, kan kan kan? :D heh.

Ystd, we fought over the same thing, over :[
But like, we clear things up eventually, after many times of repeating it.
At the end of the day, i want to say I STILL LOVE YOU, MUHD SIDEK BIN SALLEH :]
&actually, its not your fault, its just me.

Anw, my bro told me a stry jst now to why the lift was out of order.
Ystd, when my dad wanted to enter the lift, it opened up to reveal a burnt lift/on fire(i also dunnoe)hahah.
Then my dad called the lift people and they asked him to call the police.
And so yea, the lift would be out of service for sometime.
I bet its the act of IRRESPONSIBLE SMOKERS! i bet ah.
hahha. then my bro went "i scared later over there got ghost cause people die what"
hahaa. he said my dad said it too. and im like ehhhhhh, there wasnt anybody in there la.and like who would want to kill themselves, IN A LIFT?!hah.
ok, the end.

♥♥MORNING WORLD!

2007-12-10T12:02:00.000+08:00

Tell shorty I love her
Tell shorty I need her
Tell shorty not to cry
My love for her
Will never die

Heh. my bro's in love with this song :D
Tell shorty by too phat. Not bad, id say.
Hah. I like the para above.
Swweeeeeet, kan.
:D